Staci Thommes



Facebook asks, “What’s on your mind, Staci?” I’m so saddened by the recent loss of a friend. Here’s a glimpse of my story…

I’ve heard the voice of suicide. I’ve heard satan’s attempts to take my life. The voice of suicide came loud, swift, and paralyzing. It said, “Go get your gun”.

Last year, after a couple of years fighting panic and anxiety, I heard the voice of suicide, twice. I was at a breaking point…by myself, in my home…when I heard it…

I have never contemplated taking my own life. Not once. It wasn’t until I began taking my faith seriously and living it out every day, that I understood the battle which is waged against me.

That battle to destroy me; to angrily hunt me down. The first half of John 10:10 says, “The thief [Satan] only comes to kill and steal and destroy.” I read this today from an article regarding the spirits of suicide: “They will wait 30 years for you to be weak enough for them to take advantage of your vulnerability. They will wait you out until the perfect moment.” They tried but failed. Praise God!!

Psalm 55 was one of the scriptures the Lord revealed to me in the middle of a panic attack while in Russia. Here’s part of that Psalm: “Listen to my prayer, O God. Do not ignore my cry for help! Please listen and answer me, for I am overwhelmed by my troubles. My enemies shout at me, making loud and wicked threats. They bring trouble on me and angrily hunt me down. My heart pounds in my chest. The terror of death assaults me. Fear and trembling overwhelm me, and I can’t stop shaking.” I’ve heard the voice of suicide…

Many who have committed suicide planned it out, to the detail. An inmate recently told her story of how she had everything set and was transferred to another facility, so she didn’t go through with it. She said, “God saved me by transferring me.”

With others who took their life, you sit and wonder, “Why did they do it? I just don’t understand.” We may never get an answer to these questions. But, I’ve heard the voice of suicide and it is as if a lion is roaring in your ear and you can’t ignore it! 1 Peter 5:8, “Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.”

We have been far too complacent to just sit back and hope we make it until an old age. We need to be warriors for each other and for those who do not have the hope of eternal life.

Thank God John 10:10 doesn’t end there. Jesus says in the second half, “I have come for them to have life, and that they would have it abundantly.” God not only wants us to have life while on earth, but to have it overflowing.

My prayer for those affected by suicide is to continue to seek His face even through the pain and sorrow. He is a good, good Father and loves each and every one of us.

I’ve heard the voice of suicide and I stomped on its face!!! The devil has the bloody footprint of Jesus on its forehead. I am also thankful I have the power, who raised the dead, living in me (Romans 8:11) to stand in the face of the enemy and say, “Not today satan!!!!”